12/9 we made the courageous decision to put down Dori’s husbun (gray), Oliver (calico). They were a bonded pair for 10 years. Oliver had a long history of health issues and we decided it was time to let him rest peacefully.

Dori is a very independent bun and super attached to me, and I knew this grieving process would be hard on both of us. I wanted to share our experience so far in the first 24 hours to see if it helps anyone, if there’s advice, kind words, and just general online journaling as i am handling this all alone while my partner is deployed.

After the euthanasia, Dori had the opportunity to inspect Oliver’s vessel. She immediately laid her body/head on top of his and looked very, very sad. It felt like if a bunny could cry she would. After 15 or so minutes, we decided it was time to go home and she clung to him. This was heartbreaking for both the vet and myself.

When we got home she heavy breathed and did small whimpers for hours. We cried together on the couch all day and eventually she told me she was ready for bed. She has a stuffy with his scent and i have been having it “groom her” for comfort.

Dori has had a history of seizures and a diagnosis of unspecified epilepsy. Since the added stress she’s been having a ton of seizures. I took today and tomorrow off work to spend extra time with her but I can tell she’s taking it hard.

She is eating and drinking. Are there any other words of wisdom, advice, or general loving words to offer? This type of love has been a great privilege but also incredibly emotional.

Thank you ????