I know that this is just crochet reddit, but I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this that won't make it a big deal for the good or for the bad. I live in a red state, my dad is conservative, my mom isn't and supports LGBTQ+, but has always seemed weird about it when it comes to her daughters, my younger sister is a lot more out than me. I'm 18 and I realized about 6 years ago that I wasn't straight. I kept it to myself because I never thought it was a big deal. I've made it clear to my mom especially that I'm not necessarily looking for a boyfriend even though I have ex boyfriends but it seems to me that she feels I'm joking in a way. I've also crocheted for the last 7 years and it's been a really good way for me to express myself creatively. I'm making an African flower triceratops and was initially going to do it in bi pride colors so I could finish it during pride month, but every color combo didn't feel right. I have both ex boyfriends and ex girlfriends, but I've been questioning for the last 4 years since as soon as I came out as a lesbian, I got a boyfriend. Since then, I've chosen not to label myself, I found it easier that way. But not really liking the bi pride combinations got me thinking on a deeper level, I thought, "maybe the pan colors would be cuter". I sat there thinking, "am I pan?" I'm pan. It's very freeing to finally realize what you've been the whole time but couldn't figure out. While this isn't necessarily a crochet post, I wanted to tell someone, if anyone is reading, or just document this for myself I suppose. Didn't think I'd come out today, but they say you learn something new every day. Thanks for reading if you did, happy crocheting!