Kind of a rant incoming, sorry ???? If you wanna skip it, just scroll past the tildes! :)))

I (22nb) have mdd (I suspect I’m on the spectrum as well) and my doctor suggested I try to have more of a social life (easier said than done:( ) I genuinely don’t really know where I could go or what I could do to meet someone with my interests. Heck idek if this will be possible because I don’t often have means to go anywhere. (My doc also suggested a part time but then my lil sister would be home alone even if there wasn’t transport issues on top :/) Everytime I ask someone about how I could socialize irl I always get school, church, or job. I already mentioned why a job wouldn’t be optimal(never understood how I’d make friends in this setting anyway, since when were jobs an opportunity to make friends) I don’t really feel comfortable going to a church because I’m in a red state and I’m nonbinary, and the only way I’d be able to tell if they’re bigoted is if I went, and I don’t wanna put myself in a potentially vulnerable situation. I never understood how I’d make friends in school either. But I’m not in any college or trade atm because no local college has the specific niche I’m interested in pursuing, and the one school that does is a Christian college that makes church a mandatory class, and I already mentioned how I’m not comfortable doing that. I don’t mean to sound like I’m endlessly complaining, sorry if i do. It’s just disheartening having people that hardly know anything about you other than the pills you take making suggestions sound crazy simple. I don’t know how many times I’ve told mental health professionals that I wouldn’t feel safe going for a walk because I live in the hood and there’s always random shootings or a creep coming up to you./srs

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That being said, crochet is really the only respite I get from my mental health and such. I would love to have people to meet up with and crochet together but I genuinely don’t know how I’d go about searching. I do want to have a better social life, but I’ve never really had anyone listen to me about my feelings and concern on it. Fellow crochet people, share your knowledge with me please!!! I would love to have some irl crochet friends:)))/pos

(Picture is of a pattern test I did for katyasyarnbois late last year:) )