In this last month or at least 5 weeks I went through a pretty bad breakup where this man I was in love with ghosted me after getting his ex pregnant mysteriously. I lost my job contract for my dream job, which is fine because the people were not nice to work with anyway, and then my best friend died suddenly. It's been a lot. My heart is in pieces.

While keeping my head above water I fell in love with the Chevy G20 and am pooling money, selling things to make a purchase soon before spring rolls in.

I wonder if I'm escaping the struggles I'm going through or if its perfectly reasonable to marry a van and get a dog and not worry about all the things I'm supposed to be doing.

I live in Norway and I want to take it on a ferry to Iceland with my son one summer soon and travel around with him. ( It's a good $3k trip, so need a job/ multiple jobs to save )

I've worked so hard to get qualified, to escape an abusive ex not long after my son was born,therapy to work on my confidence and recover, raise a kid, get the dream job, build a life alone in a foreign country.. and I'm really done trying to be more than I am. I'm also really done pretending I'm this quiet " give me a job" person. I just want to be myself.

Van Morrison playing under the stars and an open fire is all I need. And a van, so I can breathe.